and then i come to the realization that i am not alone.

edit:: wow, i was trying to put "and then i come to the realization that i am alone"...i wrote that without even thinking. obviously my subconscious knows that i am not alone. that's good to know :)

I Don't Know What the Point Is....

But I wanted to type this out anyway. Yesterday I was at Gap where I am a sales associate. I was working in the Body department when this lady came in. And I can't remember what happened because I am finishing this post several days later and have no idea what I was going to post!

What if I had thought about it?

I just found out on Facebook that someone I know got air flown to a local hospital because of a longboarding accident. It's odd because last week while I was at work this girl came up to me and said hi and said that she was his sister and that she remembered me from high school. I can tell you that I have never seen this girl before, let alone met her (as far as I can remember). My mom use to tell me that when something strange like that happens that I should send up a little prayer for them and the people related to the situation. I wonder if I had sent up a little "take care of him, God" prayer, if things would have been different? I can't help but wonder. I know that the world does not lay on my shoulders, but what if I could have helped in the prevention of this by sending up a prayer, or trying to get back in contact with him? Who knows, just my mind reeling. Hoping and praying hard that he will be alright and that everything will run smoothly at the hospital.

Dance The Night Away!

Imagine close knit quarters where everyone is bunched in together. Some people are drunk, some not, and some just tipsy. Everyone is dancing to the rhythm of the music and absolutely enjoying every minute. It is getting hot and sweaty, but no one minds...they are simply there to dance and have fun doing so. Nobody is expecting to go home that night, but instead passing out where they fall whether from exhaustion...or other means.

Now, did you think of a dance club where there is loud techno music and chick grinding on guys?

What I am talking about is something entirely different. The music is slow...at more of a walking tempo most of the time. Bodies close, moving as one, but there isn't necessarily any grinding going on. People are letting the music be more than background music, they are letting it be a part of their dancing, a part of how they move, a part of their soul. Every sound and every beat can be felt between the two partners, growing in intensity and diminishing to almost nothing, as the music does.

This is the essence of Blues dancing. Not many people have heard of it, much less tried it. Blues is a much more sensual experience, a bond between two partners, even for more than just the length of the song. Blues dancing is freeing in a way that other types of dance are not. And believe it or not, blues dancing is starting to sweep across the nation.

There are blues exchanges and workshops that happen in Portland, Oregon; Denver, Colorado; Tulsa, Oklahoma; and many places in California; Austin, Texas; and several other places across the U.S. These don't happen in large spaces, but rather in smaller, more intimate settings, where one is forced to get to know everyone. Two people from opposite sides of the country become close friends when they wouldn't have even met if it wasn't for these dances. It is true that all dance brings people together, but blues takes it to the next level. Bonds, friendships, and true relationships are formed due to the amazing power of blues dance.

Here I am adding a few links to different videos of blues dancing:

"Chris Ransdell and Dee Kalick Dancing Blues at La Casa"

"Tommy and Dee Blues Performance"

"Chris and Lessa Lamb - San Diego Fusion Exchange Teacher Demos"

"Me and Justin dancing at Blues Fever"

"Chris and Renee Blues Dancing"

Sitting Here

I am just sitting here enjoying some time with my family. We are all here in our newly refurnished living room. My mom is on her laptop---now she's taking a call outside---, my sister is petting her dog, my brother is sitting beside me now and my dad is playing with Pandora on our new Blue-ray player. We are so blessed to have such a close-knit family who are able to hang out together like this. Of course, later my sister is going to watch something in the theatres with her friends and my brother and I are going to watch Transformers 3 for free! (love winning free stuff on the radio! :D)And my parents tend to go to sleep super early since my dad goes to work at 3am. But right here and now I am enjoying everyone's company. < 3

Nothing in Particular (And Aren't They Just Gentlemen)

I really don't have anything specific to talk about tonight....I just wanted to type. I just wrote on my Facebook about how I appreciate a man who looks out for a woman's virtue by warning her about things, including certain places, and certain people. It really shows their character. I very recently got into the blues scene, which, if you know anything about blues in the least, it can be a very raunchy and sexy scene to be in, filled with drugs, drinking, and...you guessed it....sex. I have had two men (and I am very correct in calling them men as their actions have led me to believe that they truly are) warn me on two particular parts of this scene. The one said to be careful of my alcohol intake as that can very easily lead to other things and also told me about how the scene usually went...the other warned me about a certain guy who likes to take advantage of girls when they are in this state (to that I say, it takes two to tango). I absolutely appreciated and held a higher respect for these gentlemen once they told me because they were actually looking out for my better interest. Made me happy. =)

I began analyzing this today because there has been a guy that I wasn't too sure about. I have liked this guy so much for the past few years and apparently he has liked me. The only problem is that there are certain things that I will not do, including sex before marriage, and I hope to find a guy who has never had sex (ideally) or at least isn't a man-whore lol He also needs to respect my wishes of not wanting to have sex until after I'm married. I also don't like it when people get drunk...they tend to make complete morons of themselves when they have had one too many. Again, I would like a guy that keeps his alcohol intake to social drinking only and doesn't try and coerce me into drinking myself drunk. He's tried to pressure me into this, and to that I say, enough.

I know now that there are still good men out there and hopefully I will be lucky enough to one day live the rest of my life with someone who cares about me 100%. Thank you guys for bringing my faith back in guys and for looking out for me, I appreciate it more than you know. =)

A thank you to the few good men out there.

Starting fresh
starting new
Already spring??
where's all the dew?

Wrap your arms around me
Never let me go
I want to know that I am safe
Safe from this world I know